wake me up when the nightmare is over

for some, real life is not written in the book.
for me, real life is something i need to read first for preparation.
and the preparation is never enough, and totally not the same like what i have destined to. i know.
but is it wrong to have the umbrella before the rain pours down?

reading others' lives makes me believe that i am completely wrong.
all i have to have is a little gut and small portion of courage to encounter anything in front of me bravely.
because real life is not an absolute you can forecast.

well, do you have any prediction when will i have the fortitude?
i wish it will come soon.
because i am about to give up.

need a break for a while.
wake me up when the nightmare is over.