Aku Yang Asing

"biarpun aku yang asing selalu memikirkanmu..."

saya selalu cuba menjadi yang lain dari orang lain
kalau most people pakai jam ada jarum, i prefer digital watch
(selalunya saya akan bagi reason saya malas nak baca jam jarum tu, tapi the truth is i just wanna be different)
kalau most people pakai jam yang low profile (kecik and usually dark colour), i prefer weird apple green or striking yellow mellow....

itu baru jam belum kasut or everything else... =p
i just want to be different from others i dont know why...
i guess that is how i survive this gloomy lonely life i lived.
bagi balance sikit... hahaha.

sebenarnya hidup saya takdelah gloomy sangat or lonely sangat pun... saya selalu suka hiperbola.
with good family and friends who listen, good music with easy access, things i love doing, and no financial problems (and some extra money for shopping weee....),
i actually live a perfect life. almost perfectlah. ALHAMDULILLAH...hehehe....

cuma you know, happy is an ordinary phrase everybody use.
and of course most of the time, when im happy i usually dont share.

seriously...

there will be no status update on fb telling how happy i am, having a new shoe on discount. or how happy i am, getting an excellent result. or how happy i am, having you in my life (ececece.... as if i have anybody in particular laa kan =p) hahaha.
same goes to my blog... i rarely post happy updates... well, maybe when you are sorrow you'll write better.... superficial heh?
just so you know, i dont update my status on fb pun. people think i dont use fb hahaha...

i tend to keep things to myself. or to strangers.
i dont know, maybe it is way more interesting than telling your so called friends how you feel. because most of the time i think they are judging me.
i dont judge myself. i cant see strangers judging me. so by doing this, im safe from unnecessary heart ache.

and that is my definition of happiness...

memanglah tak healthy kan. rasa diri betul je. but kawan-kawan, i think when we feel what we do is right, you are building confidence in you. dont you think its good. =p
tapi janganlah sampai buat orang lain terasa hati. that is not nice, that is evil.
yang sedang-sedang saja. enough for you to feel good and for others to feel comfort being around you.

anyway, dont be yourself. be the best for yourself.

cakap senangkan... cuba buat.=p