rollercoaster

there's so many things happened for the last few weeks.... ada pengalaman yang best. ada yang tak. well, that's life man. what doesnt kills us, only makes us stronger (someone told me this last night on jaga).

lets rewind to last week.
- i was in orthopedic and traumatology department last week. an interesting department but does not suit my soul. =p ceh... hahaha...
- i was a chief-co on one fine jaga night. really fine i told you. tak banyak pasien. team sangat-sangat cooperate. bestlah pokoknya. and because of that, banyak dokter residen kenal saya. =) i like this part.
- and the handsome nice male-nurse pun tegur saya... "selamat pagi chief-co, berapa pasien hari ini?" ahahaha.... cute tak?
- and there's this one resident with sexy husky voice. i like. turn out to be the most arrogant resident i ever known... berlagak nak mampus macam terer sangat... (memang hebat pun but then janganlah berlagak sangat ish.....)
- by the way, because that week was a hectic week, saya pun jatuh sakit. huhuhu.... dokter pun manusia biasa. bisa sakit, bisa luka. and being me as always... saya simpan sendiri and told my friends after i felt better... tidak mengapa. sekarang i am stronger than yesterday.... =p

so this week...
- i was in neurosurgery department. ini department gila.... orang yang gila je boleh belajar tentang neurosurgery.... sebab the doctors GILA PANDAI..... hohoho....also not suit with my soul. and my brain capacity =p
- tapi jaga night was exciting. i got to stitch more patients. learn lot more about x-ray and ct scan reading. the residents were nice.
- and i got one experience which was last night. one of the patient died. sempat jugak saya buat cpr to her. mmm.... at first i felt nothing. but when her child cried..... i dont know, a sudden rush of mix feelings running down my vein.... =( my first dead patient..... huhuhu.... actually not my patient pun but she's dead under my supervision....oklah... consider my patientlah because she was a neurosurgery patient. and yes. im the one who told the doctor there's something wrong with her.... i did the cpr.... =(((( semoga rohmu tenang disana....

saya dah type random stuff dah ni... =p

i came across this quote from diana rikasari's blog...

"Doing the right thing is always more difficult than doing the wrong thing. That's why good people are great, because they overcome that difficulty."

i love it =) and i want to be the good people. and still be good no matter how the world treat me. what do you think? can i? can i?