the thing is, i want to make sure that you are happy after all that i've done to you. that's why i keep on reading your blog because i think that's the only way i could keep on track with you.
i cannot do anything to make you happier. i cannot make you happy at all. all i can do is watching you living your life from far. and pray that you have a happy blissful life.
it hurts me when i know you are sad. it hurts me more when i found out mostly it was because of me and i cant do anything to lighten your burden. and all of those words, all the curses, i know you didnt mean any of it. because i believe deep down you are the nicest, kindest human being alive.
yes the guilt haunts me. and it drives me crazy. but....
im not writing this to look out for your sympathy to forgive me or whatever you think it is.
like you, writing is just my way to express my feeling. not more and not less.
im sorry i messed up your life.
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